Breaking

"Heartbreak is an illusion.  The heart is soft and made of light, and therefore cannot break. What is actually breaking is the wall built up around the heart. Let it shatter."  -Unknown.

Audrey Kawasaki

July Wrap Up

July 

• We held an open house and showed area providers who we are. Baddass that's what.
• I went to a Trauma Training and learned all amazing things about the all amazing brain.
• Working Working Working Working on the curriculum's.  
• The events in Aurora took a toll on me & my community.  That is a theater I know very well. 
• I moved from the suburb of Englewood to the Downtown Denver Life. Not an easy move with unethical movers and a small dirty dusty spidery place. *exhaussttteddd*
• I celebrated the arrival of Saturn Returning!  I'm officially 28. (Am I an adult now?! whoa.)

With the school year approaching and my personal life uprooted, I did not have enough internal & external resources for my stressors. Which, lemme tell you - makes for a rough couple of weeks. lots of crying. headaches. I had some supports in there though. Thank you all.  

“Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance, you must keep moving.” 
― Albert Einstein

Developing an Artistic Style

I have lots of fear that prevents me from creating. I have no idea who I am as an artist. I don't know what I enjoy, I don't know what I look like.

Well - that's not true. I DO know what I look like. It happened by a fluke circumstance. In a 24hr  countdown panic, I could do nothing but let go and get the assignment done. and of course in letting go, that magical thing happens. It happened once. maybe twice.

That magical thing is not some unpredictable, show up randomly cosmic event.  It's a relationship the artist has with her genius. If you trust and practice with the unknown, the unknown shows up brilliantly, and you make not just cool stuff....but authentic stuff. Art that reflects you at your core...not just your amazing draw-an-apple skills.  More like....that-feel-good-this-looks-just-like-my-soul-stuff. That mmm-yes-I'm-committed relationship.  


I missed out on this. My degree made no space for yummy relationship building. I can recognize Hagia Sophia but I can't identify myself. 


The more that I plan for my classes, the clearer it's becoming that I want to teach what my own education lacked. And not because I have weird Art Therapist ego. I'm using my experience to recognize a need. Students benefit by falling in love with who they are. Don't we all? I want my students to fall in love with their genius. Discover their genius, paint their genius. To not be afraid. 


I want it for myself. 

I picked up Finding Your Visual Voice by Dakota Mitchell.  *Drool*  I'm teaching this to my Level  2 Class. THIS is what I want students to walk away with. "It explores how & why you paint and what you respond to visually and emotionally. [This book helps bring awareness] to the combination of instincts and feelings that encourages you to pick up a paintbrush and create work that is your own". Yummyyy.  Very structured & workbook style. 

Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.” - Howard  Thurman.

Here We Go

Artist Unknown from Favim.com

This is my Dream. 

I make the Path.

-Alice