Things are not difficult, but they are difficult enough. I have this grand notion that "things" (whatever those things are) get easier, and I keep pushing for what I'm realizing is an unattainable stopping point. I thought things would get better after UNLV. Then after Naropa. Then after my first year of work. Then after the summer. and now I'm here, and I caught myself saying, "oh. it'll get easier after this second year". ....
:/ wtf.
Uggghhhh. Brain be quiet. It's not true. This is it. Things aren't slowing down. Things will not get easier. There will not be a time period when I am not facing a challenge - as it should be right? We continue to grow, and we continue to get better. On this Saturday before the start of the academic year, I want myself to be mindful, enjoy the journey, and create pockets of spaciousness. Time can't slow down, but I can slow down and appreciate my relationships and the activities that shape who I am outside of work.
I am at this weird place where I don't want work to define me, but I'm also recognizing that in this field, I AM my work. Oh, the lucky life of the helping professional. And I say that with all honesty. I made a choice to help. and that comes with some sacrifice. It also comes with rewards that align with my values.
It never gets easier. You just get better.
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Hang in there! Work can be tough, especially adjusting to new positions. But, you will eventually find your flow and make it work (as Tim Gunn would say). Just make sure you find time in your week to do something that you enjoy (self-care!). This is so important to prevent you from getting burnt-out.
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